I am suffering from strong Waswas in all my acts of worship, especially istinja (cleansing after relieving myself). When I use the toilet, I just spend too long a time. It became a very hateful place to me for whatever reason. Every time I enter the toilet I cry because of how strong this Waswas is. I do not feel sure of my Tuhr (purification) at all. Many things put doubt in my heart, like when my hand touches a tahir (clean) place after I washed a najis (unclean) place, so I have to wash that position as well. Also when the water of istinja sprinkles on my feet and body I doubt my Tuhr so I have to wash them after finishing.
What is the solution? Many have said to me to just ignore this Waswas. But I don’t really know how to make sure I am on Tuhr.
If the urine touches any other place do I have to wash it or not? If I ignore washing it I doubt and wonder that if I am not pure then my salah (prayer) will not be accepted. On the other hand if I wash I feel it is really heavy and beyond my ability.
Another question:
What is the ruling on prematurely ending my salah or wudu (ablution) or ghusl (bath) as this comes to my mind a lot?
Sometimes I think that it is not a problem to cut my intention during the act of worship and I just complete it. Other times I think that deciding to cut an act of worship spoils it as I cut my intention as well so I stop it then start over. This matter also became out of my control, what should I do? Shall I continue my salah, wudu or ghusl even if I decide during it to cut it? Or should I start it over then?
These doubts do not leave me since I start my salah until the end of it. Something whispers to me to stop it or repeat it or start it over again after you complete it. I am tired and this is beyond my ability. Will my salah be acceptable despite having all these doubts along the salah? What is the solution? Please help me, may Allah bless you!